1. |
Stupid Smile
00:58
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Was a pleasure to kill him
Dreaming of it forever
ripped his dick off and I made him swallow it
He was watching me changing
Naked, geeked out and cooing
Shook my soul out cuz he said he really cared for me
Local theatre comedian
cue the sound of me screaming
i was little so he filled me up with secrets
remember when I was so sweet?
Or seductive and naive?
Now he’s croaking so I better get a trophy
And I wish I told you
I was drowning my childhood
You never saw through
My stupid smile after all
It’s always false
Never bring this up to my mom
She might think it’s her fault
Maybe it’s true
I’m just confused
But it doesn’t change the stain, the shame, my blues
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2. |
Dr. Phil
01:31
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I’ve been waiting for my major label deal
I’ve been waiting for my dad to open up
it's probably not gonna happen
I don’t even know why I want it
I’ve been waiting for my ducks to get in a row
But it’d be easier if I was more of a jerk
Like everybody else in the city
Making a name for yourself in the city is
hard as day old crusty maggot filled
feel like such a mess, help me, Dr. Phil
I don’t think anyone believes in me
cuz’ I’m not who i used to be
Daddy’s telling me I need to get a new job
why do i need a job besides being so cute
I know that I could invest in cryptocurrency
But I just don’t care if I have any money
it’s all just
hard as day old crusty maggot filled
feel like such a mess, help me Dr. Phil
I don’t think anyone believes in me
cuz’ I’m not who i used to be
I’m not lazy or dumb I’m just trying to be someone who cares enough
I have become commodified, why even try at all
I’ve been waiting for my ducks to get in a row
But it’d be easier if I was more of a jerk
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3. |
Dolly Parton
02:27
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If I could build a time machine in my room,
I’d go to 2042, I’ll prove to you
the world gets better than we thought
it could do
I told you!
There’s an affordable machine
generates food
It’s in every living room, it tastes good
And every person has a home, it’s so simple
Just hold through
Cross my heart and ugly cry
Religiously watch ‘9 to 5’
On my knees I scream her name
Pray for when she saves the day
Dolly Parton, give us money
We’re no good, neither’s our country
Dolly, you’re the business elite!
If you don’t fix the system, well, it’s pretty much your fault
Every sucky job is done by robots
We’ve established universal living income
You don’t even have to work unless you wanna
Just hold through
Cross my heart and ugly cry
Religiously watch ‘9 to 5’
On my knees I scream her name
Pray for when she saves the day
Dolly Parton, give us money
We’re no good, neither’s our country
Dolly, you’re the business elite!
If you don’t funnel funding, well, we’re fumbling, dumb, and crumbling
Wish it was that easy
The world’s always been burning
I’m tired of believing
That rich people could care about us
Dolly, though I love you
future doesn’t rest on
The best of your intentions
You’re just a single human
Dolly Parton, give us money
We’re no good, neither’s our country
Dolly, you’re the business elite!
If you don’t fix the system, well, it’s pretty much your fault
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4. |
Star Rek't
02:07
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I love you but now I gotta know
if you’d be into Star Trek
You’re so cool I’m sure you’d choke it down
But in my dreams you make us watch it
Sprawled out on my couch we don’t make out
we just fan out on spock
only way i can feel like it’s 1969 again
I’m not scared of how cool you seem
I’m just depressed by who the world lets me be
being a boy is a curse you see
i’m so scared that this is just me
silver little screen staring right through me
no wonder i’m so lonely
you’re so kind to me, but i’m just weak
i’m so sorry i still watch it
your unafraid kindness makes me realize i’m no monster
but sometimes when i’m in you
my body feels like a dagger
I’m not scared of how cool you seem
I’m just depressed by who the world let me be
being a boy is a curse you see
i’m so scared that this is just me
i wanna tell you everything
but if you saw what’s in my head i know you’re gonna hate me
i’m so scared that you’re gonna leave me
i’m so scared that this is just me
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5. |
Taylor Lautner
02:03
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I threw up when I realized what they did to ya
You were just a kid in Breaking Dawn
Then they made you strip to give us what we want
Though I know it’s wrong,
I’m obsessed with getting abs like ya
Chugging protein shakes, exhausting runs
I wanna be as jacked as you were as a child
I just want a safer body!
Blend in with the beefcakes just for the summer
Strut out in a tight white t-shirt
tear it off like Taylor Lautner in Twilight Eclipse
I just want a safer body
Eating just enough to force myself into a starvation
I feel unwell and still my weight is up
I wanna be objectified and fetishized
I just want a safer body!
Blend in with the beefcakes just for the summer
Strut out in a tight white t-shirt
tear it off like Taylor Lautner in Twilight Eclipse
I just want a safer body
I’ll get big enough to beat them up
And we can double team those Hollywood perverts
Pound them to the pavement
Til there’s not a face left
I will never trust another man
I will never trust another man
I just want a safer body!
Blend in with the beefcakes just for the summer
Strut out in a tight white t-shirt, i don’t know
I just want a safer body!
Blend in with the beefcakes just for the summer
tear it off like Taylor Lautner in Twilight Eclipse
I just want a safer body
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6. |
Big Mouth
01:19
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scrolling violent porn on 4chan
soaked in shameful emotions
only way you knew to love
And when you got to college
used your classmates for practice
Had a problem, but said you were getting better
Now you’re pacing anxious
typing out an explanation
don’t say you don’t remember cuz I know you understand
and friend, I get what you’re going through, I used to be that way
We’re not such innocent big mouths, never were, shut it down
Those times you never thought to ask
Cuz everything just felt so right, your porno fantasy
I know you’re selfish when you say that
Every time you think about her you get stomachaches
You’re not confused you just don’t care what you do
Bloodlet your sorry selfish walking contradiction poison brain
More than a mistake, you’re still the exact same
I wonder, can people really change?
You’re pacing anxious
making it about you
You’re not so innocent big mouth
You’re not so innocent big mouth
You’re not so innocent big mouth
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7. |
Shut Up
02:02
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don’t tell me i’m wasting my time
waiting for things to fall in line
yeah, i get depressed and too sad to move on
but not cuz i think it’s cool to feel like that
shut up, shut up
you think i’m stupid don’t ya
shut up, shut up
you think i’m stupid don’t ya
look at me
and tell me you think I'm a good person
please
picking my nose, tell me the truth
do I act dumb, do I look cute
what if I told you I really don’t care
that’s a lie, I’m scared and shy, I’m so obsessed with impressin’ ya
shut up, shut up
you think i’m stupid don’t ya
shut up, shut up
you think i’m stupid don’t ya
i remember the first time we met in real life
and you tried to seem sweet
and you gave me some of your green juice smoothie
and i asked
what’s in this green juice smoothie
and you wouldn’t tell me
you made it sound like it was because there was some secret
but I think it’s because you didn’t know
i think you just bought it from the market across the street
i think you just poured it in a mason jar to make yourself seem like a big deal
and you are one
and i’m mad about it
shut up, shut up
you think i’m stupid don’t ya
shut up, shut up
you think i’m stupid don’t ya
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8. |
Cruel
02:06
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Just get out of our part of town
You selfish clown
And hand over your property
You hide behind
‘Love is Love’ signs
You seem so nice
But all your friends are chosen whites
How many people used to live here?
And left ‘cuz they didn’t own a house and got priced out?
And how many of those people who repeat that cycle
Do you really care about?
You’re way too cruel
You’re way too cruel
You’re way too cruel
Make no mistake, we’re gonna take back everything
All you want are profits up
and to be loved
Well, I think you gotta choose one
You’ll die a miser and a liar
Did you know that money isn’t even real
And how many people used to live here
And left cuz they didn’t own a house and got priced out
And how many of those people who repeat that cycle
Do you really care about
You’re way too cruel
You’re way too cruel
You’re way too cruel
Make no mistake, we’re gonna take back everything
I'm not making a point, I’m just making a scene
my intentions are good but i still get angry
when you said you’re invested, you just meant you buy houses
you’re the reason everybody leaves this city
You’re way too cruel
You’re way too cruel
You’re way too cruel
Make no mistake, we’re gonna take back everything
You’re way too cruel
You’re way too cruel
You’re way too cruel
Make no mistake, we’re gonna take back everything
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9. |
Falling In Love With You
02:03
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I’m into kindness
Yeah, that’s my type
It’s no high standard
But you’re super nice
Just tell me the truth
Do I do it for you?
I wanna be your pet
You can leave me on your lawn
leash me up and never call
Do I sound desperate?
Falling, falling, falling in love with you
Never doing anything for you
ooh, wee, ooh, i know i have some growing up to do
Am I always gonna be ashamed
i’m always tired
work, sleep, repeat
i push myself hard
to prove I am sweet
but I don’t hold you
when I want to
I’m sick of not cuddling
baby, let’s run away
Falling, falling, falling in love with you
Never doing anything for you
ooh, wee, ooh, i got some growing up to do
Am I always gonna be ashamed
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10. |
Big Man
02:22
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Today is my last day
Being underpaid, man
give me a raise
or i’ll spill out ya secrets
you do coke every minute
but call poor people crackheads
you throw chairs at the ceiling
brag about meditating
Oh, oh, don’t think I work hard?
Oh, oh, quit skimming our tip jar
Oh, oh, your ex-wife called
If she knew the things you did
She’d leave you now, oh wait, she did
Big man, you look so strong
but you’re so scared of everyone
Big man, you seem so mean
But you’re just scared of little old me
you were born a winner
you get off getting richer
but you’re actually lazy
good at looking important
you’ll take over the whole world
but you can’t take it with you
everybody you screwed
will be glad to forget you
oh, oh, you’re lucky you’re handsome
oh, oh, know why you date so young?
oh, oh, you prey on everyone
relinquish your small businesses
we run this place, you’re just a dick
Big man, you look so strong
but you’re so scared of everyone
Big man, you seem so mean
But you’re just scared of little old me
I’m not out of line
Just taking my time
Why should I wanna work harder than you
I just gotta lie
Won’t survive otherwise
You are the very best boss I ever had
I get the feeling you hate me every day
You only care about having it your way
I’m not a robot, I am a human being with needs
Do you believe in anything besides your money?
If I was lazy, would’t mind selling out
A simple slip, I’d fit right into your white boy posse clout
I’m not a robot, I am a human being with needs
Do you believe in anything besides your money?
Big man, you look so strong
but you’re so scared of everyone
Big man, you seem so mean
But you’re just scared of little old me
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11. |
Hurt Slow
03:22
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You're making me hurt slow
Stopping and starting over and over
You get off on control
Sometimes I wonder how I’ll recover
But Rick’s still working in the junkyard with his friends
He doesn’t care what’s cool, he’s doing it for him
He gave up trying to be famous when he had his kids
Ricky, you were keeping me whole
Will you feel better when I say I didn’t want it to end?
Cuz every time I tell the truth I hurt a little bit less
You’re making me feel weird
When I was younger, baby, I blew it
I thought you would be here
Sometimes I wonder, what happens after
But Rick’s still working in the junkyard with his friends
He doesn’t care what’s cool, he’s doing it for him
He gave up trying to be famous long ago
Ooh, Ricky, why’d I go?
Will you feel better when I say I didn’t want it to end?
Cuz every time I tell the truth I hurt a little bit less
Will you feel better when I say I didn’t want it to end?
Cuz every time I tell the truth I hurt a little bit less
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12. |
Thank You For Listening
01:22
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You flew straight in from DC
Cuz grandpa might die in surgery
You make so much money
Don’t need us until emergencies
Wish you lived closer
Maybe we would still be buddies
It’s just vague, faded memories
When did we stop really hugging?
You still shout out in your sleep?
apologize profusely?
Never talk about anything
Well, you can cry with me
There’s a day boys forget to love
it is sudden & it’s subtle
we stop holding each other long
i don’t think i even noticed
til i told you what happened
that night somebody raped my body
remembered why i love you
brother, thank you for listening
Do you still shout up in your sleep?
apologize profusely?
We never talk about anything
Well, you can cry with me
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13. |
Luis
02:38
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I love my friend Luis
he is so tall
sticks up his nose cuz he’s
a know it all
tells me just how he’s feeling
so we can talk (and then we talk)
figure out how to fix
anything gone wrong
luis tries so hard not to cry cuz he feels everything
i like to wipe tears from his eyes while he’s wiping mine
Luis, I love you
we’ll get through the pain and suffering
you’re why i’m still here
my heart feels 10 sizes too big
I love my friend Nico
they seem so small
I keep them in my belly, we’ll never part
sometimes I get so angry, it’s no one’s fault
Nothing on this cruel earth can tear our souls apart
And we try so hard not to cry cuz we feel everything
i like to wipe tears from your eyes while you’re wiping mine
123, just count with me and breathe I know you can
123, just count with me and breathe I know you can
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